IT'S BEEN TOO LONG!
Ok, so I'm officially a SOPHMORE at my college. It's already my 5th day here and 3rd day of classes! And so far, it's actually been EXTREMELY GOOD. School-wise and friend-wise. And I'll talk about the boring stuff first and get into the more juicy gossip-worth stuff >:)
So just to let you know a but about what happened to me last year, I REALLY screwed up the beginning of my freshmen year academically and socially later in the year. But thankfully, everything got a little better near the end.
I mean, my grades are still ehhh, but this year, I'm GETTING THAT 4.0!!! The classes I'm taking this semester seem pretty easy. I'm taking 4 altogether. One of those four I'm retaking due to my stupidity in the beginning of my freshmen year, so that shouldn't be too bad. Another is pretty interesting since it's about Chinese literature and the professor seems really intelligent and I feel smarter when I'm around him. And the other two are science classes with labs (UGH) but science comes easily for me, AND they're intro classes! 4.0 sounds very possible!!
And I just changed my major today into Microbiology. Before I was a Communications major, but the program here sucks and my dad wanted to kill me since my dreams of being in Public Relations was too stupid and materialistic for him, and after that a Computer Science major, which those who know me know that I failed terribly in that class (lol.... not).
But changing my major seems like a real new and fresh start for me, and it also means I'm one step closer in being a PLASTIC SURGEON!! (YES I WANT TO MAKE PEOPLE FAKE, BUT FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES AND PRETTY!)
My GPA is still going to hurt me until the last days of my Senior year, but the past is the past. What's done is done. It's a brand new time, there are brand new faces to be seen, and now I'm much wiser than ever before.
BUT OF COURSE (!!) some things are the same. ( Like how I'm transitioning to my social stuff??)
So as I mentioned before, I had huge drama near Spring break and on until the very end. If you knew what happened, you would know that it was COMPLETELY STUPID, and I didn't deserve the shit I got and that the other party was (and still is) super immature about stuff.
So since this is a new year and stuff, I thought that the guy that I had the biggest problem with wasn't going to be there since he graduated back in the summer time. But one day, I visited my old dorm to say hi to some old friends and as I was about to go into one room, I heard laughing..... Very familiar sounding too. And all of a sudden someone told me that the guy I had problems with AND EVERYONE ELSE that I had problems with in the past were ALL in the room!! Seriously, I knew that he was a dumbass, but DAMN, he must be fucking really dumb for taking ANOTHER semester here in school!! (Most kids would just take summer classes to "seem" that they graduated on time, but the really dumb ones stay much longer....)
So that was one thing that really made me sad/angry/depressed. But it's new times right? I'm over it and I'm totally willing to say hi when I see his face... But let me get going..
Then that same night, I went to eat with all of me friends and of course along the way of getting food I saw a bunch of other people that I knew. One of them was my good Korean friend. As we hugged I met eyes with none other than, my ex-roommate (yes she and I had problems too because she was on the same side as the dumbass dude). Again I thought, It's a new year, who cares?!, and said hi to her also as I was still hugging with my Korean buddy. And what does that bitch do? Look down and wave shyly........ Ok, it may not sound that bad, but trust me, that's totally different than her normal personality and it just showed CLEARLY that she still had problems with me... And the funny thing was that that bitch told the other girls that were sitting at the table, and they treated me differently too last year, but even they were all happy to see me and hugged me too when I saw them that night.
Last night was kinda funny too.... My friends and I went to eat dinner and that time, I just saw EVERYONE. The dumbass dude, my ex-roommate, and just everyone else that got involved and were against me. There was ONLY ONE GUY in that group of friends that understood what I was going through last year and he was the only one that actually talked to me normally for the rest of the year. When I saw him, I gave him a big hug and he still remembered my Korean name, Heekyung, and we were all good. And when I sat down to eat with my friends, guess who were sitting behind me and sitting at the other table next to me.... ALL OF THOSE ASSHOLES. I clearly made eye contact with the dumbass dude, but before I could say hi, he literally turned his head away and walked really fast away. (That's so mature Mr. 22 year old....)
But I didn't care. No one was willing to say hi to me but it didn't get to me. I was sitting with MY friends and having a good time and staring and eating the strange sushi that had rice crispies all over it. But while we were eating, that one good guy that calls me by my Korean name, kept on yelling out "Heekyung! Heekyung!" to just talk about how our summers were and stuff. He was sitting at the table next to mine and he was RIGHT NEXT to Dumbass. Dumbass and the others didn't look at me or the nice guy at all while we were talking.
What really pissed me off though was what when I got up to get more food and water, I saw Dumbass, ex-roomie, and others all get up and talk to my friends that were sitting with me ( my friends don't know anything negative about my relationship with them and they're chill with them)...... And when they started to notice that I was coming back, they all went back to sit down........ And then I overheard my ex-roommate say "Oh we should sit together for lunch, just us, next time!"
yo... wtf? She's like... still trying to get in my space.
And I just remembered... She visited my dorm the other day and she would NOT get near me and I overheard her talking about me in a kinda awkward/rude way to one of my friends.... bitch
Anyway, I guess things will never change. But I know better and I don't need them HA
Here's the good part of the first few days though!!
I didn't realize how much I missed my friends until I saw them altogether and when we were all talking again. I really missed how we would just all sit in one stuffy room and just talk about random things that pop up in our minds. And to them, I'm still known as dirty mind haha. The dorm that I'm living is pretty fun because a lot of my friends are on the same floor and the girls and I take showers together while the guys just chill in their room and do.. stuff lol.
And I'm also making a whole other group of friends since I am now a part of KSA (Korean Student Organization). I'm the newest member on the e-board as the media chair ( which is time consuming, but fun since I make all of the event posters and facebook stuff ). Everyone on the e-board were already really close with each other and I was really worried about fitting in since I was the new one. I only know most of them but could only say a "hi"/"bye" thing. But they gladly took me in with open arms and they're all so friendly! Guess I can't escape the Koreans! lol
I guess all I can really say is that I am SO THANKFUL for having the friends that I have. Some who know about my past drama understand me and still talk to me since they know me as who I am and not by my mistakes. I'm happy that I'm making a lot of new friends easily through KSA. And even though I'm getting extremely busy because of KSA and classes, my friends are still my friends since they respect and understand that I can't always be there and I love them for that and I am happy!!
And that's it for now! Hopefully things won't get anymore sour than I've experienced so far and even if they do, I know I always have others to back me up ;)