Friday, April 27, 2012

I'm About To Sleep

Yeah as the title suggests, I'm about to go to sleep - it's pretty much 1 AM right now. But before I go to sleep I feel like blogging for a bit.

Last weekend, I was getting stressed out about a lot of things. First, I had an interview and I think I failed that because I got nervous during it all of a sudden. It was an interview for a position next year as an event coordinator for one of my school's  more 'official' organizations. I knew one of the guys that already works there, and he told me that my application was one of the best ones! And he told me that there were two positions and only FIVE applicants, including me, were getting interviewed. And I was surprised that I got it because for one, I applied past the deadline, and two, I don't have work study - and they're really picky about that. But when I went to my interview all dressed up like a secretary, I saw five people sitting at a table and my friend, the guy that I knew was there.... AND there was someone else there that I knew! It was so unexpected and it just threw me off... Errr these five people were interviewing just one me....

I know that that shouldn't be anything big or anything, and it wasn't. But the fact that I knew two people who were interviewing me kind of freaked me out. Why? Because they have seen my partying, stupid, and loud side of me. And now they were being all serious and seeing my serious side! Again, I know that things outside of school and work shouldn't have had any affect on my performance during my interview, but I just freaked out and got embarrassed. And during the interview I answered some things... awkwardly. I only the remember the bad things, oh my god... Well, I do remember seeing some impressed faces during the interview...

*SIGH* Before, I was so sure that I could get the job for the school year - and I was depending on it so that I could make money for my future spring break trip and who knows? Maybe I can go to California again next summer! But where did my confident, smart, and polite me go during that damn interview?!

Lesson learned: Don't party and go crazy too much in front of people that you aren't super close with. It can bite you in the ass when you least expect it.

What else... Ah. I'm having serious namja problems. I don't know if I can blog about it yet since I feel like this episode of the whole damn situation just isn't over yet. When it is, I'll definitely blog about it because it's a pretty memorable piece of my life.

I want to say that I hate namjas right now, but it's more like I just CANNOT trust them. Right now, I feel like that they all have secret motives or something. I know that everyone, not just one gender, has their motives. But like I said before, I'm having namja problems and I've been stressing, so my mind is totally biased. Or is it totally biased? Either way, I know that I can't trust the male species. What happened to the happier, don't-care-if-you're-a-guy-as-long-as-you're-nice-to-me, doubtless Steph?

With all this said and school work slowly piling up as finals come closer and closer, I am just getting sad about everything. My close friend saved me by coming in my room while I was in bed just staring at the ceiling and told me that we needed to go out. We were both stressed out, she having different reasons than mine. And we ended up eating at a restaurant, watching the Hunger Games movie for one night and the day after we stayed in Barnes and Noble for 6 hours, just talking.

And that was exactly what we needed. Just a friend to spew out our inner feelings and get comfort. We also did something that I thought was kinda cute, yet inspiring?

It was my friend's idea, that we list the things that we know that we are good at and the things that we would like to get good at. Then we listed all of the possible careers that we've ever thought of wanting. Then looking at the things that we are good at and the things we would like to get good at, we started to cross of the careers that didn't match us. We talked about it too since sometimes you need an outsider's perspective to see who you are. And the funny thing was, our results were very different. We had different strengths and weaknesses and totally different careers that we were interested in. In the end, my career options were public relations, advertising, and dun dun dun... plastic surgery! Her's were things like a counselor, something government related, and a lawyer. After that, we started to write little goals for ourselves to become good at the things we want to get good at, and to get closer to our dream jobs.

As silly as this sounds, it made me really happy inside. I felt a lot more confident about working hard to get closer and closer to the person that I am. And my friend and I felt that there was no reason to become upset because of people that have seen my partying side, bitches, and namjas. We both agreed that these people that give us a hard time is just a passing phase. And that the time for good things to happen will come sooner than we think.

Now. It's been a week and that time finally came to the both of us! Good things happened to my friend. As for me, I've been doing really well in my classes and my dad is telling me that if I keep it up, I'll get a really nice car as soon as I finish up my sophomore year of college. And my namja problems are slowly going away as my guy friends here and the interesting guy friend that I met during my LA trip are making my distrust go away. And that damn job interview? I don't give a damn anymore! If I don't get the job, that just means more time for me to go out and it gives me a reason to get money from my parents if I'm ever broke.

And other good news, I've decided to go to New York  next weekend to see my cousin! I miss him and I just want to have a one on one talk because you just need those once in a while. Not to mention, I also want to go shopping heh heh heh ;)

Me and my friend! 
This picture is to remind us that we have everything to shape our lives the way we want to.
 We just need to work hard at it :)

Remember that! And nothing can stop you ㅋㅋㅋ

Wednesday, April 18, 2012


It's the perfect temperature outside, not too sunny, not too windy, and my room doesn't feel like a sauna for once. So what do I do instead? Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter, and blog, when instead I SHOULD be studying for my exam tomorrow night or finish writing my LA experience. OH WELL. I'm just going to contemplate on the past couple weekends.

So the weekend of March 30 to April 01, I went home for the weekend because I promised my sisters and my cousin that I would take them out to karaoke in Allston and eat chicken at Bon Chon. All I can say about that is that it was the most relaxing and fun time I had in while with just my family. We sang our hearts out and ate like pigs and talked about life's issues. I was getting sick, but it was all worth it! And damn, we all put on a shit ton of makeup and looked amazing, but I'm not going to post up out selcas ;)

The best part of that night was after leaving the noraebang. Jeero blasted on BAD BOY by Big Bang on her iPhone and we all started singing and walking-dancing to it on the streets.

Simmie, Sarah, and Jeero. Jeero is so passionate looking there.

Now the weekend of April 06 - 07 was a crazy one. That was the weekend when the Korean Student Association that I'm a part of had our annual Korean Night. April 6 was dress rehearsal day and it just a lot of fun just walking around the giant, empty auditorium and just seeing all of the performances where there isn't that one annoying person that's sitting behind you and kicking your seat like a retard. And if you didn't know, I'm a part of executive board of KSA as media chair. I had the fun part of making the flyers and posters that were all over my campus - muahaha I'm proud of my work that I didn't really work on because I was a lazy ass.

And the picture above is one of the four mini-flyers I made and I had to do something with 2NE1 because they're sexy HAHAHA.

Then the next day, we had to do rehearsals again from 10 am until 5 pm which, again was pretty fun since this time the Yale students came to perform their Korean drumming and the guests artists that we hired finally arrived!

We got the comedian from Los Angeles, Danny Cho! If you haven't heard of him, you can check him out on his YouTube page:

I personally think those aren't that funny - he's too dirty and racist, but I guess that's what you have to expect from a comedian. BUT he is also in this mini-show called KTOWN COWBOYS. It's a mini-series thing shot in LA and from the name I think you can guess what it's about. A group of Korean guys hanging out in this amazing place in LA called KTOWN. Danny is in the show and he actually wrote all of the episodes too! Here's the YouTube channel, check it out!! It's actually really funny :)

**SIDE STORY* When I went to this one bar in K-Town, I actually saw one of the guys from the mini show and he was working as the bartender! I didn't recognize him until after I left though. Cool, right?**

And the other guest artist that came was this amazing hip hop artist / songwriter named Gowe from Seattle. It stands for Gifted on West East. He was adopted by Chinese parents and when he turned 18, he found out that he was actually adopted and Korean. Anyway, his songs are actually really good! His beats are really good and the lyrics are actually meaningful and UNDERSTANDABLE - unlike whatever the hell Lil Wayne says. His song "I Wonder" is about that part of his life - I HIGHLY RECOMMEND WATCHING IT! And his other song "Star In My Eyes" is really good too!! CHECK HIM OUT!!

Then at 7 pm was the actual show. I was placed in the front to hand out the program to the people that showed up and to be honest I was disappointed. Not that many people showed up as I would have liked. And seriously, we all put in so much work for the two hour show and people just don't realized that. BUT other than that, it was the most amount of people that had ever come to a Korean Night and the audience was pretty good! I was so happy that my friends came to watch and they were all pretty responsive, especially when Gowe and Danny performed! Either way I would describe more of the show, but then it would get boring and I'm probably going to do KSA again next year and next year's show will hopefully be even better and more worth writing about :)

Anyway, during the show backstage, I talked to Danny and Gowe A LOT. My impression, Danny is a strange one.... not that friendly, but really funny to talk to if you're chill about being insulted on the spot. And Gowe is soooo nice and friendly. He apparently was asking about about me to another friend of mine when I was someplace else - I felt so effin' special LOL. And now we are Facebook friends! That's how nice he is. And funny thing, we have a random mutual friend and it just shows how small this world is!!

I had to get pictures with them, no?

LOL my face is funny and Danny looks like a sketch because I told him my story about how this black guy came up to me like a total  creep and wouldn't stop touching my sides and before we took a normal picture, he told me that he was going to pretend that we was that guy.

Yes. HE IS SHORT. Yeah I'm wearing heels, but still.... HAHA. I look fat in this, but that's okay.

Then me and Gowe! Yes, he is pretty short too.

And I had to take a picture of myself! I liked what I was wearing that day and my hair ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ I got non stop compliments on my nails, which you obviously can't really see, but I just had to mention that...

Overall, Korean Night was stressful and fun. I can also remember the after-party, but I can't talk about that ;)


Now it is 5:30... I have used 3 hours of my time indoors and on my laptop. I am the most productive person in the world right now!! Time to go EAT!

Thursday, April 5, 2012


I have been gone for way too long. A bit more than two months.I literally died... from school and all of the little shits that come with it.

But my SPRING BREAK had resurrected me!!!!

Just to let you know, I went to the Sunny State for a week, and I had the most fun of my life! And on top of that, school hasn't been too bad, I actually feel more motivated to do work! So I haven't been procrastinating and those little shits I mentioned, they don't bother me anymore! And the weekend after my amazing trip, I went back home to see my sisters and my cousin and we had an amazing night - something that we REALLY needed.

Ever since I came back from Los Angeles, I just feel like a totally new person! So the tired, always busy, worrying, always complaining me is gone (well for now hahaha, who knows who pisses me off next). Now I seem to always have time and I feel more optimistic about things. So that means I will be blogging again!

So yeah. This was an announcement post, so yeah... I'm still alive guys :)