Thursday, November 24, 2011

Palty Hair Dye: Jewelry Ash Review

The first thing I do when I get back from for the wonderful Thanksgiving break: DYE MY HAIR.

Jewelry Ash

I ordered two boxes of the famous Daryiya Palty hair dye in Jewelry Ash. For those that don't know, Daryiya is a Japanese brand that is most well known for their Palty hair dye collection since they have a really nice range of different hair colors.

Some boxes, I believe these are a new line of colors since the application style is different

These are just SOME of their available colors! SO PRETTY

Anyway. I was attracted to use this brand for a few reasons.

FIRST! I wanted to dye my hair a darker and a slight purple undertone. I hate orange hair now.
Second, I've heard of this brand for so long, I just had to try it. And the jewelry ash color is so freakin' pretty
Thrid, I read a lot of shitty reviews and I want to make one that actually has truth in it MUAHAHA thasright

So I got home and opened up my package right away!

You can compare the lighting quality with the picture of the jewelry ash above lol
Okay, first of all, the colors don't even match the color on the model on the front of the box. And from the looks of it, it just seems like it makes your hair lighter than what it is now. I mean, why would you get some funny color if you had blonde hair? Usually if you have blonde hair, the color is even MORE like the color on the box.... So that's my first sketch feeling about this.
The things inside the box :) I love how it's all pinkk
Instructions all in Japanese... I had to look online to find an English translation haha.
But it looks cute!
There's a cut out on the back of the box to put in the bottle so you can mix the chemicals easier or something...
People must have been really stupid to have to make this little invention... lol
you can see the twix I ate
SO! Let me show you what my hair looked like before I started to dye it! And yes, I know my hair is pretty damaged. I had a digital perm a while back and it's still growing out and I refuse to chop it off all at once because I like my hair long. I've been trimming it bit by bit, so it's really not that bad compared to when I first got it. Honestly, I like my hair. #leavemealone

My hair is orange-brown as I explained here.

Hair up really close. You can kinda see in the upper right side that it's really light.. I have this like random streak of blond hair because of the effects of being the sunlight haha
*no changing in lighting and I just used my old sony digital camera*

*next few pictures are taken with my shitty 4Gen ipod touch just to show different lighting*

Looks SUPER orange!


Just to let you guys know, I'm not one of those people who don't wash their hair for like two or more days before dying it. I honestly don't care about that shit. I take showers every night, so before I would normally take a shower, that's the time I would dye my hair. So yeah, the last time I washed my hair before dying it was the night before.

I had to find a trash bag so that the formula wouldn't get on my awesome shirt.

Anyway, I put the good stuff on my roots first since the gross dark brown was growing in. I left it in for about 5 minutes. Normally I would leave it in about 5 more minutes, but because this brand apparently has a bit of bleach in it, it doesn't take long for the coloring to work.

Oh and one thing I noticed immediately was that IT DOES NOT SMELL. Okay, it was a VERY VERY VERY VERY FAINT smell, but seriously, if you compare it to other hair dye products, this is AMAZING!

Another thing is that one box was perfectly enough for me. A lot of people said that they would recommend two boxes... But I mean, I have long, but kind of thin, hair and it was enough. I don't know, up to you. If you have thick and long hair, then yeah, you should have two just in case.

It took me about another 10 minutes to evenly put in it in the rest of my hair. By then I could already see a bit of a color change in my roots!

The instructions said to leave it in for 20 minutes after and then wash it out. To be honest, I never follow the times in the instructions because I just follow by how my hair looks. Asian hair is usually thicker and if you have dyed hair like me, it just changes everything. My advice, go by your own instincts on how long or short you should leave the dye in... Don't leave it in too long cuz your hair will be all fucked up and then you'll blame people like me :)

I wiped some of the stuff off and you can kind of see the grey/light purple colors of the hair dye. excittinggg

So yeah, after 20 minutes, my hair looked strangely... Not jewelry ash or purple. In fact it didn't really look dark at all, which was what I was going for. Even my roots seemed... light.

I washed everything out and blow dried my hair to see the results!


It just made my hair a few shades darker.... -______-


Here are some before&after pictures to show you the amazing difference...

*nostrils flaring* OH MY GOD. REALLY? I should've expected this since the past reviews I've read and seen didn't seem to favor Palty too, too much.

BUT! Here are the pros to using this:
1. My roots are all gone!
2. My hair actually dyed really evenly. That random streak of blonde is pretty much gone and is the same color as the rest of my hair.
3. The product doesn't smell bad at all compared to every other hair dye out there!
4. Damage-wise, my hair is in the same exact condition as it was before. So healthy on the top and gross on the bottom because of my stupid perm.
5. The orange tints are all gone - so I guess it does has that "ashy" undertone to it even though it's basically a brown shade instead of purple/red.

1. No where near the color I've been wanting. I know that this has worked for some people, it does seem that it doesn't for most people, including me... And I've been dying my hair for so long - I know what I'm doing. But this is my conclusion to why this jewelry ash color failed me... This product apparently has bleach as I mentioned before. Therefore, it will only make you hair lighter and lighter and the effects of actually making it a purple color like the one showed on the box is not as strong as the bleach. Which is why the box shows that if you have blond hair, the end result isn't a more vibrant jewelry ash color, but a weird ashy brown color. My hair is an orange... So yeah. And I feel like I should've shortened the time... Maybe it wouldn't have been as light as it is now so that the bleach didn't keep on doing its thing.

Will I use Palty's Jewelry Ash again?

Probably not. But my final conclusion about this color is: DON'T USE IT UNLESS YOU START OUT WITH DARK HAIR. If you have hair color that's like mine or lighter, you probably won't get that ashy purple color that is so pretty :'(

BUT I will like to try out other colors by Palty! I feel like if I tried a might brighter color, it would've come out really nice. But I'm not the type of asian that will dye their hair blonde... Actually, maybe it might happen... I only have one life and I want to try it out before I need to get interviewed for some amazing job or something lol

SO OVERALL!!!!!!!.........

it's aiight

HAHAHA That's my review! I hope you found it much more helpful than the other shitty ones I've seen! 

Monday, November 21, 2011

Did you really have to tell me that?

Ok, so this is a continuation of the previous blog post I had about how I feel really lonely. The reason why I’m continuing this depressing post is because MORE things added on to my issue, as life usually does.

So remember how I mentioned how I have this girl friend that was making me feel all depressed? The one that thought I was stupid in picking guys and the same one that wants to be super popular and slyly use me to get more friends? WELL GUESS WHAT?!?! That same girl is contributing even more to my loneliness and doubtfulness of who my real friends are or not.

This past weekend I had an AMAZING TIME – which I will post about with nice pictures probably right after this one. I had planned to leave and I told all of my friends that I was leaving to see my family and to see my middle/high school friend of 6+ years to party at Harvard or MIT. I told them this because I wanted them to know that I was going home because of pre-plans and not because I didn’t want to hang out with them or anything. In fact, a part of me really wanted to stay that weekend because my friends were hanging out together for the first time in a while and partying together.

And I happened to tell that girl my plans for the weekend. So she knew the basic, overall details of my weekend plans.

That same weekend also happened to be the same weekend when my friend was going to bring her hometown friends over to our school to celebrate one of her friend’s 21st birthday. And my friend was invited me, our group, and a few other of her close friends. But obviously I couldn’t go because of my pre-plans. I even felt terrible for not being able to hand out with my friends – AGAIN – so I took the last bottle of rice wine that I was saving for all of us to drink together and wrote a long note and taped them together to let them know much I actually DO care about them and how I really wish that I could stay. I gave them the bottle to kinda make it seem as if I was drinking with them since rice wine is my favorite drink – and they know that too. So it was all good!

At least that was what I thought….

Basically this is what happened when I got back from my amazing Veteran’s Day weekend, which I will again talk about soon. So the Monday after I got back, I was so busy with work that I had to do that I wasn’t able to eat with my friends for dinner. So I go into the dining commons to eat quickly by myself, but I saw my Korean friend A, and that girl that I’m talking about in this post let’s call her B. They were eating together and of course I joined in like a normal person. A had to leave because she had to go to the gym – I should’ve joined since I’m getting fat and lazy haha.

So it was just me and B together. And she was saying those typical lines to me again. The “Oh, this weekend felt SO EMPTY without you”, “I missed you soo much home-girl”, and “Oh my god, I want to know EVERYTHING about your weekend!”. Personally I didn’t want to tell her EVERYTHING that happened during my weekend since there were things that I really wanted to just keep to myself. Seriously, she has to be in EVERY aspect of my life. So I told her the bare minimal… And again, the stupid things like, “Oh I hope you were careful with the MIT boys” blah blah blah shit since she thinks I’m super stupid with boys.

Then in turn, I asked her how her weekend was. And BOOM she went crazy and started to laugh and went straight into telling me her weekend.

This is the story that really pissed me off / mad / sad / depressed / confused / jealous too…

On Thursday night, which was the night that my friend threw that 21st birthday for her friend, B went too because she was invited. Okay, I don’t really care about the invitation because what probably happened was that she bumped into my friend and since she is trying so hard to meet all of my friends and kind of sucks up to them, my friend invited her. Okay, maybe it does get on my nerves. Anyway, B did end up going and she partied with them.

She met and got to know ALL of my close friends. ALL OF THEM. And B told me that she had a ton of fun playing beer pong with them and drinking and hanging out with them. So she met all of them. Had a lot of fun with them. Really, REALLY liked them.

She also got the number of one of the guys (at least I think she only got one…. For all I know she probably has all of their numbers already). Anyway that one guy happens to be the same guy that I was talking about in my previous post I HATE BEING LAST TO KNOW. The same guy that liked me for so long. And I HAVE told her about that too and her reply to all of that was something like, “oh he sounds like a weird guy” sort of thing. But now that she actually met him her reply was, “OH MY GOD STEPH THAT’S THE SAME GUY AS BEFORE! HAHAHA I think he’s soooooooo freakin’ cute. I don’t know, I just fall for guys like him. Ahhh I got his number and everything, but Steph I can so tell how he’s not your type. Yeah help me get to know him and stuff!”.

As a friend I said okay. WhyamIsonicewtf

Then she continued. “Yeah Steph, He’s so interesting. I actually went smoking with him and ___” (my other friend of mine). And this is what kind of got me mad about this. First off, I’m not too sure what kind of smoking it is, but it was probably cigarettes. This got me a little mad because my friends and I have been trying to make ___ not smoke cigarettes, and I have a feeling that she wanted to smoke and kinda got him tempted to smoke too. Second, this girl has a thing about smoking. She always tells me how she doesn’t want to smoke, blah blah. And then the next thing I know, she starts smoking for the first time this semester and smokes every time she drinks too. Honestly, I really do believe she started smoking, not to relieve stress, but to fit in with the cool, party crazy kids.

And last but not least, this is what got me really thinking about everything I’ve been depressed about. She continued talking and finally said this…

“Steph, I hope you’re not getting the idea that I’m like… intruding or hanging out with your friends all the time. Like, when I was there I was thinking things like, ‘ooohhh so these are Steph’s close friends, no wonder why she wants to hang out with them all the time’. I really like them, but I was thinking how I was hanging out with them without you being there because you know, I was hanging out with them and you weren’t there hahahhaa. But yeah, I love how you and S have your own group of friends that’s like totally separate. I want one too haha.”

Okay. Okay? Okay. At first I thought, okay this is typical. But then it just hit me and I started to feel sad all of a sudden. Why did she have to tell me that? It made me feel like she WANTED to hang out with them really bad, with or without me being there, because she couldn’t stop talking about them. And what was with the having your own separate group of friends shit? Yeah I have my own, but STOP INTRUDING. I don’t give a shit if you want to have your own, but do you have to come into mine?

Okay, okay I sound like a total bitch right now. I sound exclusive and all, but when I say that she is literally wanting to be in EVERY aspect of my life and doesn’t want to me to be in any of her personal “groups” of friends, I mean it and it DOES BOTHER ME.

It made me feel like she was using me to get to know more people. And since my friends happen to party pretty well, she wants to be with them every time we throw something – and funny how there is another story about that that happened this past weekend…  And guess what, even though our friend S also has her own group, I don’t think B hangs out with them because they’re not “cool” party kids. She just has all of their numbers and texts them like a crazy cat lady.

I just know it. She just wants to be fucking popular as shit. I mean, it just makes sense of all of the things she’s said to me and how she acts. I just don’t like it. It’s making me feel like I have no group anymore to go to, especially with the fact that my friends are accepting her!

It just all hurts to think all of this. I really don’t want to be a bitch by being like “NO THEY’RE MY FRIENDS” type of childish shit. Just… Why… Why do people just want to know everything? Be friends with everyone? Take away something that is special to you? In my case, the group of friends that I have are the special to me in my college life. Why does she just HAVE to be a part of that too and take that specialness away?

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Really Quick Rant on my Hair

I just want to share what I've been thinking about lately...


Ok, not even. I NEED to dye my hair.

I'm JUST SICK OF IT ALREADY. that's not a good thing..

My roots are growing... They're already a bit more than an inch and, ugh, it looks narsty. Especially since my natrual hair color is really dark brown and my dyed hair looks orange-brown.

And I put my hair up a lot, so when you look at me, you can see them.
Usually I clip my bangs back like that so you see my hair gradually change color lol
Btw. That's my sister, Sarah with me :)

It's been bothering me so much that I can't freaking focus on studying for my two exams that I have coming up. dontknowwhattodowhatthefreak

So I dyed my hair back in the beginning of September. I used the brand that I usually use, 꽃을든 남자 - don't know how to translate that... Man of flowers? I don't know haha.
And since it was kind of summer, I really wanted brighter, orange-er hair. So instead of usually dying it cappuccino brown (CN7), I used something else. I can't remember if it was N6 or N8. And I should've taken a picture, but too lazy. 

That was really stupid, because that's a summer color and before I knew it, it was fall already. And fall clothing always looks better with darker hair. NOW I WANT DARK HAIR!

BUT I AM CONFLICTED! I want to dye my hair, but my bottom half of my hair is still damaged due to that shitty digital perm I got earlier this year. Effin' regret it. You can read about that here and see why I am against perms. Seriously... Just learn how to blow dry your hair well and use a curling iron. That's all you need. I'm serious.

The new color that is attracting me is a darker color. Last year I had wine-red/purple hair that only lasted a month before the color faded to brown (fml) and you can actually read how I wanted orange hair... 


Palty's Mauve

Palty's Jewelry Ash 
Okay, so it's not that dark. But you get what I mean... I'm loving that purple tone in hair and I really want to try out the Japanese brand Palty that every girl probably knows about. I can already imagine my hair that color and ahhh I would look so much better in my fall and winter clothes. Seriously, if I could get that jewelry ash color... It looks so damn beautiful.

I am scared that my hair will die because of the chemicals... And since I've never used this before, I have no personal experience on how well the color comes out and how LONG it lasts. That's why I hate american brands- on asian hair at least - because the color fades so fast. I'm also scared of bleaching. I WILL NOT BLEACH.

I found this picture on google that shows the results of using the jewelry ash or mauve color.
Seems somewhat promising of getting that purple/gray color that I want.
I just want to dye it soon.... Thanksgiving break is coming soon, so maybe then. Shit that means I have to order it right now. 

That's it.
My hair is too orange. I mean... look at like blonde streak too! 

I'm going to do it.

Going to order it right now.

End of blog. - PEACE

Hopefully I'll have a new post about dyed hair soon!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

That One Good Friend that You Don't Have

I've been moody lately. I'm not PMSing or anything. It's just been that I've been feeling kinda lonely lately and I've been noticing that my moods have been changing around some people... I can't even study normally in my room or in the library anymore.

Sorry. I'm going to be ranting about my emotions instead of catching up to my life on this blog, but UGH!!! I know you've been through this stuff too!

Like... Don't you HATE IT when people just "switch" on you

What about when you feel like people don't really give a shit about you. 

Oh, and when they say things in your face that just kind of show that they think you're stupid. 

And I don't know about you, but isn't it MAD ANNOYING when you're the chill one that introduces you to people since you're nice and believe that everyone should know and love one another blah blah blah, but then that person you're helping out kindly just... uses you to meet more people and just.. UGH take credit or something for things and start taking away your own friends?

And to make things worse, these people are your own, "close", friends.

So I don't know exactly when I started to feel this way, but all I know now is that I'm feeling lonely again. I feel that I have no, real, close group of friends that I can always rely on. I ALWAYS have my sisters and my cousin, but I'm talking about just MY OWN, separate group.

A group, or even just one person that I can just be completely open with. Someone that can try to get out of his or her way to meet up with me and I'd do the same. Someone that is always willing to talk to me and do things with me when they have free time. Someone that won't criticize me in a way that will actually hurt my feelings. Or just ditch me when there's someone new or better around. I just want someone that just understands me. (this is sounding like I want a boyfriend... but I'm just wanting a friend)

I bet everyone wants someone like that. Whether that person is a friend, a family member, or even a boyfriend/girlfriend kind of thing. But it's really hard to find that group or that one person. It's really hard.

I thought I found my awesome group of friends after my ridiculous drama during the end of my freshmen year. The thing that I found the most attractive about them was the fact that we were still able to be really good friends after hanging out with other groups of people or after being gone for a  week because of studying. We understood that we all had our own schedules that didn't always match up, yet we were all able to have a good time with each other when we did meet up late in the glass room in the library, or even on a random day in Boston.

But lately, I've been getting the cold shoulder. Or at least I feel that way.

With my group of friends, we barely hang out anymore. I know that we're all busy, but when there IS actually a chance for us to hang out, a small portion of them decide to do their own thing; never inviting us to go with them. Or when I mention something to do for all of us, they try to be nice about it, but they turn down the offer in the end.

I always mention how we should all just watch a movie together and just chill, but they never really respond to me... The fucked up thing is that just the other night I found out that they're all going to watch a scary movie together on Friday. I always ask to watch a scary movie, but instead they go out drinking on their own. And now when someone else in my group brings it up, EVERYONE wants to do it without any objection.

And another funny thing is that I'm not going to be there that weekend.

I also feel that I don't connect with anyone in my group anymore. I don't know all of the details in their past life, and I don't need to know, but it's getting to a point where it seems like they don't want to open up to me at all. Like all the girls have personally heard past life stories from the guys. I'm the only one that hasn't. I'm not scary or not trustworthy or anything either! I don't understand... But it does hurt knowing that...

And there's this one other person. When I first started to get to know her, I thought that she was one of the best friends that I made. She would always open up to me and I would open up to her. We'd help each other with each other's problems. We'd get excited over similar things. Stuff like that. She'd always say how this other friend of ours and I are her two best girls and how I am a really good friend. And she would also ask me if I would want to go to a party with her the next weekend, or if I wanted to room with her off campus or in the apartments. But then she'd just switch out on me.

She would totally forget that she invited me and apologize. I would hear her ask other girls to room with her next year and would totally ignore me, probably because she forgot or those girls are better than me or something. And things like that would constantly happen.

Soon I realized that the things she told me were things that she told EVERYONE. In reality, I guess I wasn't that special or good of a friend.

But there's more to that. I feel like that she's using me to meet more people. She would always come to me and tell me how sad she felt about how she doesn't know that many people and how she was jealous of me because I seemed so popular. Apparently when we walk together, a lot of people say hi to me when they pass by and she envies that. As a friend, I would of course say things like, "oh no, you do have a ton of great friends", "you're so outgoing", and the biggest mistake - "yo, I'll introduce you to my friends."

When she heard me say that, she got so excited. And now all I can say is that she thinks that she's really chill with them now and talks to them as if I don't know who they are and I kind of get left out of the conversation.

And when it comes to guys...... I would support her with who she would like, but when she would hear my stories, she would oppose to it. I used to have interest in pepperoni and she would just be like, "oh stay away from him, he's pretty bad." She doesn't even know the guy and when she DOES MEET HIM, she acts all cool with him and acts as if they're all really super close friends. And now that I have interest in a guy that I met in New York University, she again goes all "New York guys are the worst", "don't get involved with him" and stuff like that. Again, SHE DOESN'T KNOW HIM. She thinks I'm mad stupid with guys and she's a genius or something when she herself doesn't know shit.

Now I'm figuring out that she's just one of those girls that wants to be popular. The one that knows everyone on campus. The cool girl that has connections with all the parties. Wants to fit in by drinking and smoking. But then wants all of the older guys and girls to take care of her and watch out for her when she does. She wants to be the younger sister or brother to everyone. The best girl friend to girls. Wants all of the guys to be super close to her so that she can share her problems with them and have them open up to her.

I guess everyone, including me, kinda wants to be like that. But I just don't like how she went through me to meet a ton of other people in my group. I didn't like what I saw during this past trip and she acted with the older oppa's and unnie's and the two "cool" new guys.

I feel like I'm used, lied to, and just stepped all over when something "better" comes along.

And I thought I was finally getting that one good friend.

I just remembered something else... I would be telling a story to a friend and then she would totally butt in and take over since the story was about one of the "cool" new guys that came to our trip... Rude much.

And there's another girl that has been showing her bad side too. But, shit, I don't want to write about it...

Anyway! I'm having trust issues again. I feel like no one is actually there for me. When I think I find a good person, there's always something off.

Maybe it's just me. I'm just too picky. I know no one is perfect, but it's just too much of how I've been treated. Maybe I'm the one with the damn problem and not my friends. I'm the one that's too judgmental? Am I the one that's off? Am I just being too bitchy? Maybe no one wants to get close with me because the way I act and think is fucked up or something...

In the end, I just feel lonely again. I don't have anyone that I can just go up to and talk about this guy that I think is cute without being thought of being retarded... Or someone to just watch a simple movie with me. No one calls me anymore to just talk about life. I just get texts about if they want to go eat or borrow my homework. And when I ask if anyone wants to eat with me, it seems like a huge problem for them.

I just don't have anyone to tell them that I feel lonely.

The trust issues are coming back. I bet you've felt this way, or are feeling that way now.
And I guess the only way to solve this problem is to keep searching.