I Hate Being Last to Know....

Don't you absolutely HATE it when someone goes to you and tells you something like, "I know something that you don't know?"!?!?!?!? Don't you get so freakin' curious that you can't stop thinking about that thing that your friend knows that you can't know? I don't know about you, but when that happens, I start thinking about it like crazy and start investigating and then I want to punch everyone until I find out.

Well, something like this happened a few days ago. And of course, the "thing" that I didn't know and wasn't "allowed" to know had to do something with me. And of course, it had to relate to a guy, or else it wouldn't have been juicy enough to post up on here... ha.ha.ha.

It all started when a friend of mine came up to me and said, "Steph, are you ready for the upcoming events?" I had no idea what she was talking about and I asked. She goes, "HA! I can't tell you!! And no one knows about it except for me!" And ran away.

At first I thought she was just playing around since she just came out of the shower and I just went back to doing my homework. But then the evilness came in my head and I started to think of all these possibilities of what she could have meant. So then I found my friend and BEGGED her to tell me. It must have been good gossip stuff since she told me that none of our friends knew. I HAD TO KNOW.

My friend wouldn't tell me directly at first. She asked me things like, "What do you think about person #1" which was her boyfriend and I answered honestly.

"What do you think about person #2?" which was our friend's boyfriend and I answered honestly.

"What do you think about person #3?" which was one of our friends. I answered honestly, but she stopped me and specified about what I thought about him in terms of looks and personality. I answered honestly.

"What do you think about person #4?" which is another one of my friends, and I answered honestly.

This is when I realized...... it was about someone who must have had a thing for me. And I knew exactly who she was talking about. Let's call him 000. How much more obvious could she get? She was saving that guy for last because he is in our group of friends..... *sigh*

And my friend, being a girl, she had to spill everything out because we started to talk about the good stuff. First of all, to make things seem a bit more understandable, I'll mention how the guys who are single in my group of friends are known to play with girls. They're not bad guys, they're great friends, but it's just that when it comes to partying and pretty girls, they kinda suck hahaha. So my friend told me how this all started. Her and 000 were having a conversation over text. And it was all about how she doesn't like how he and the other guys are basically players and quitters (? I think that's how she described them... quitters. I dunno she talks thug and I don't lol). She was trying to tell him to stop messing around with girls so much because she thinks its wrong. Like it's cool to party and meet up with girls, but not making the girls believe things exist when they don't care. And 000 took her words into consideration and told her that he was going/wanted to change. And the last text was basically saying how 000 was now going to try his chances with me.

When I heard this story, I was just jaw-dropping. Not because I thought this was sweet and I was happy that someone liked me. But because..... AHHH I can't explain directly. There's just a back story to this too, which I will summarize:

I met 000 in the middle of last semester. So this was after my friend problems and I started to hang out with the people I hang out with today. When I would study with them, and since I started to hang around them, I got to know 000 more and a couple of other people. I was still upset how I was treated by my old group and how I still felt like I had no friends and I would have a sad face without knowing it around that time. 000 would always ask and even text me about it. I came up with two reasons for that. Number one, he was, and still is, close friends with my roommate at that time and if you remember, she was a part of the crazy old group of friends that I had and I have no doubt that she told him about it since she told a lot of random people about it. Number two, I had a feeling that he was getting interested in me.... Since it was just a guess, I just ignored that possibility and lived on with life. But when I think about it.... he did text me a lot and always attempted to take care of me when I was drunk or something.... errrrrr.

So. yeah. I told my friend that and also that I have absolutely NO INTEREST in 000 and never had. He was just a friend to me and that's how far it'll get. My friend was of course curious about why I had no interest because she did think that he was a good guy and stuff. So we talked about our past. She told me about her personal stories about her past relationships and current one and I told her how I've never dated anyone still. When I told her that I was single my entire life, I got the usual " OMG I don't believe you!" or "You're serious? I bet you're lying" type of stuff. But at the same time she told me that she kind of expected that from me because now that she knows me, she sees the "innocent" side to me aside from my open dirty mind and perverted-ness.

Actually, the more openly perverted you are, the more innocent... Kinda true I guess.

Anyway, after talking she jokingly told me that I'm a heartbeaker since I just can't like 000 back. But she understood why and concluded that I'm just not interested dating and that I'm just not ready. (To me it's I'm not interested and he's not my type... LOL I'm bad) THIS WAS ALL JUST DAY ONE


The next day, I noticed that 000 started to text me a lot again. We barely texted each other since school ended and because I've been busy I've barely even seen him this school year. But I treated it as if I never had that conversation with my friend the night before and texted away like I normally did.

But my inner girl gossip spirit had to tell someone else about it. And I turned to my best Korean friend JH who's also in our group of friends. I told her everything and during that entire time I was talking, she had a smirk on her face. Then I had her tell me what she knew....

And these are the things she knew:
1. She's known that 000 has liked me since I started being friends and that he even TALKED TO HER ABOUT IT. The reason why she never told me this was because she knew that I wouldn't have been interested and that it was unnecessary (I love her because she's so reasonable like that)

2. EVERYONE has known that 000 has at least had interest in me since last year.

3. Last Friday night, I went partying with another group of friends and that night, she and my friends had their own small party. And since I was the only one that wasn't there, JH asked 000 directly in FRONT OF EVERYONE if he still liked me. JH said that he said I don't know, but was like turning red....

4. That same night 000 was opening up to JH and hold her that he thinks that he's creeping me out by texting too much and that I'm too good for him etc. (drunk talk? lol) And JH was just encouraging him to text me more ( LOL I love JH for that too. She's just honest hahaha)

So yeah... Last night too, I tested it out if my friends knew too since NO ONE but those two girls had actually told me that they knew about 000. While we were eating dinner, everyone but two guys were at the table with me for a few minutes. I asked if 000 was going to this event that I invited everyone to go to. And the two guys looked at each other and started laughing and told me "Why don't you call him or text him if he's going?" ... I hate them hahaha

Anyway. I'm just ranting about this because I hate it when you're the last to know about things and it ends up being about you... And this is kind of a re-run of how I have guys like me that I DON'T LIKE in that way....

I have yet to see 000 since the first days of school. We'll see how things go lol.




WHY CAN'T I FIND A TALL KOREAN GUY THAT HAS A GDRAGONLIKE ATMOSTPHERE?!?!?!??!?!?!?!